I feel sad. This deployment has been a long time coming, so I feel as though I have prepared as much as possible for it, but I can't get around the sadness. I feel weighed down right now. I was hoping that the fact that I just moved and need to unpack would help keep me occupied so I wouldn't be so sad while my love is gone, but it didn't work. Now I just feel stressed as well as sad because at some point I need to figure out how to get rid of all the boxes, contain the clutter, and conquer our new home. One of the hardest things about moving is making new friends. I've met a lot of people. but it takes time to really develop friendships. well, deep friendships anyway. I miss my friends. Obviously, they are still my friends. but it isn't the same. My kids are wonderful though. I love my children. We have two, a boy and a girl. Zavier is 3, almost 4 and Emma-Grace is almost 7 months. My baby girl still isn't sleeping through the night, so maybe if she starts doing that it will help.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to send my husband his first care package. A few things he forgot to bring, plus a few things I want him to have. I wonder how long it will take him to get it? I miss hugs. I miss kisses. I miss... everything.
Hugs to you. I can't imagine how hard it has to be...I have a lot of respect for families that sacrifice all that you! Hope you start make some meaningful connections soon in your new home. I think starting this blog will be a great way to share the highs and lows of being a Army wife and Mommy.
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